Saturday, August 30, 2008

Work, Marriage, and Other Realizations

I am enjoying a lazy weekend. I have the apartment to myself. I am relaxing. It feels good. I honestly haven't had much time to relax, well, this whole summer. I have made a promise to myself to be frugal enough this year so that I will be able to afford not to work next summer. I intend to have a summer of rest and relaxation. I only have a year to go. Yikes!

School is starting next week and the butterflies are flying around in my gut. A week ago I was so confident. My students did so well on the writing portion of the WASL. This week was another story. Have you ever known a person who just sucks away your confidence and everything that makes you feel good about yourself? There is a person in my life who is like this and unfortunately, I work in pretty close quarters with her. I know she means well, which makes thing worse. Being around her just makes me feel crappy about myself. I somehow need to get the confidence to move beyond the things that she says to me. In my heart and head I know that I am a good teacher. I'm not perfect, by any means. But I am improving every day and I think one day I will be a great teacher. I just need to keep repeating this in my head over and over again.

Two of my best friends got married last week. I am so incredibly happy for them! And just a little bit lonely. I will miss my single friends so much! Now they are my married friends. I still love them to death, but things will be different. I guess that's growing up for you. This woman at my work who I love noticed I was a little down last week and told me to not even thing about getting married until I'm 36. She said I should be enjoying my time to myself and encouraged me to go out and live my life to the fullest. That is what I have been doing and what I intend to continue to do. Sadness begone!

I just realized this post is a little depressing, which was not my intention. Everything in my life has been very good, and, as I continue to say, miles better than it was a year ago. I guess I am just looking for more; more fun, more excitement, more challenges. They are bound to come. After all, look at all that happened in the past year!

Monday, August 4, 2008


I haven't updated in a while and a TON has been going on! My parents were here for a week and we had a very nice time. We went to Bainbridge Island on my birthday. We walked around the quaint little streets and had lunch at a sidewalk cafe. We took Maddy for a walk on the waterfront and she was afraid to walk on the docks! It was really funny! I think she thought she would fall through the cracks in the boards. We also went on a little hike through the woods.

I had a great birthday dinner with my friends! Well, the dinner itself wasn't the great (Wild Ginger didn't live up to it's hype), but the company more than made up for it. I have the most awesome friends in the world! Only four people were missing from the dinner; Eina, Gigi, Susan, and Nnennia. They were there in spirit, though. :)

My parents left on Saturday morning. It was hard to see them go; especially since I won't see them until Thanksgiving. They really are the most wonderful people in the world. Thank goodness I had Jess' bachelorette party Saturday night to take my mind off missing my parents. It was loads of fun! We went dancing and drinking in Pioneer Square. Jessica seemed to have a good time. She even got to get up on the bar and dance. I'd post a pic of that, but I'm afraid of retribution. ;) All in all, I've had a pretty good week and have thought about J less than my usual. :)